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Friday, January 23, 2009

my life.is a blur.
too many things going on at the same time.
im too lazy to blog abt all my crazy days.
you can see my calendar if you like.
and dont ask me how i manage to squeeze time to study.

stunts.
soon, dance.
private gym prac?
DnD'09 com!
PR
catching up with frens
og outings
my darlings
the blogshop stuff
did i leave anything out?

thursday night was awesome!
had stunt prac from 3+(right after tutorial) to 6+
dinner with christine
luge/skyride with christine and yunpei
tons of camwhoring!! we love 9 straight shots dont we?:D
camwhoring at siloso in the dark
cafe del mar!at the canopy bed
i declare sex on the beach my favourite drink!=D

today.23jan
was awesome!
I HEART HC
street market
val, toon and robert
MEDICINE PPL(:
medicine batch photo at the central plaza!
teachers!
i just LOVE sch to the max
cabbing back to sch for lipid metab lect

mini og shopping at orchard
ALOY at pasir ris!(:

my blogging less is cos i hardly have time to on com go online-.-
on a random note, gossip girl is annoyingly addictive.

you know you love me.
xoxo

Y10:34 PM

Friday, January 09, 2009

PHOTOS *click

these past 5 days have been rather fulfilling.
it's not like he's going to prison or hell or sth and not coming back but somehow i cant help feeling more anxious and scared with each day that passes as it drew closer to the 9th jan enlistment date.

one of the 5 most happiest days of my life
monday
we had lunch at marche vivocity
and just enjoyed each other's company as we walked around pet lover's centre looking at our favourite hamsters and shih tzu
we parted at 345pm as he had driving lesson, and met up again at boon keng mrt at 545pm
had dinner with his family at some seafood restaurant at serangoon
his dad fetched me back after that and i watched the last episode of the little nyoya

tuesday
i rushed off after anat prac to meet him at bugis
we took a walk to purvis street and had lunch at ms clarity's cafe
we then walked around bugis and bugis street shopping, buying clothes, strolling around in the shopping mall..
the laughs, the smiles, the silly comments and teasing..
had dinner at some duck rice place which was pretty good then i had to go back pgp cos my dad wanted to drop by to pass me some stuff.

wednesday
played floorball with medicine ppl!
abt 15 ppl turned up
sup and i were the only girls -.-
so we ended up splitting into 3teams, 5 each
my team had mayank, khang chiang, xavier, yunsong and me
thanks to mayank's pro-ness,the 2goals = winner, and loser team is kicked out to make way for the other team, my team played pretty long-we played the longest among the three, or at least till abt 12pm when i left to bathe back at pgp

clinicals was FUNN! got to feel pitting edema, hear the lack of breath sounds in a patient with pleural effusion, and learnt the simple, yet important capillary refill test(:
met aloy at novena at 7+ i had dinner at kfc
we then took a train up to PUNGGOL
ULU LIKE CRAP.
aloy and i took a photo standing in the middle of the road-seriously no car passes by anyway.
had to cab to punggol marina, which was again almost deserted

I LOVE PRAWNINGGG
guozhen's cousin works there
so with guozhen with us, we got a discount(:
but qt sad, we like 3hours only catch 3prawns or sth-everytime the prawn bit, we lacked skill to pull it in:(
i went to help this china guy refill the ponds, then he gave me a GIANT prawn for free.HEEE then he see us catch so little, he gave us 10frozen prawns for free too and helped us fish for more prawns XD
we prawn-ed till 1+ AM
bought charcoal to set up the bbq pit to cook the prawns(:
by the time we cabbed back, it was really late
we slept at 3+am which explained my missing the first lecture on thurs morn :x

THURSDAY - the last day
nth fancy
aloy wanted to kick ball for the last time at NAFA where his elder bro studies
so it was soccer for him from 3-5
met him at 5+ and we had dinner at soup spoon
met his mum and his little bro after that
then i temp. permed my hair cos they had those academy salons at bugis which were pretty reasonably priced.
we went to his house after that

SLEEEEPOVER.
cooked maggie mee for supper
spent some time camwhoring
he has very nice broad shoulder and really lovely pec major muscles!
it was nice to lie on his chest, listen to his heartbeat, feel his muscular arms..
i didnt feel like sleeping that night-i felt like if i did, i might wake up and he wouldnt be there anymore.
our 'last moments' were mundane
yet its the simplicity and everyday love of it all that i truly endear

FRIDAY
woke up pretty early
had bak kut teh for breakfast before heading to pasir ris interchange
i liked the ferry trip
makes me feel like i was going for some holidayyy HAHA
then the tour of tekong felt like i was on some package holiday tour
seriously there was even a tour guide thing mann
saw qt a few ppl from hc(:
had lunch at the dining hall-feels like im eating at hall-even got song playing in the background
i felt like i was back at ke hall lol

shall go upload photos now(:

Y9:28 PM

Friday, January 02, 2009

too many things happening.
my mind's spinning.
for once in my life,i wish i could have time to myself to slack,pack and just not rush for dates/appointments/events/gatherings.
it's really too tiring.
sacrificing one for another isnt my style either
my calendar's been disgusting
i dont even have time to date my dear sister val :(
and sch's starting in a few days=s

on a happier note,
HAPPY 2009 everyone!
2008 wouldnt have been what it is without you guys
im proud of the new friendships ive made-my yp colleagues, my recruitexpress colleagues, my medicine OG mates, medicine classmates, medicine M2s and random friends everywhere, anytime!

the first half of 2008 wasnt well spent.
if given a chance, i wanna relive it all over again and do things differently.
there are too many things i regret doing, regret not doing, yet somehow im glad it turned out to be what it is because otherwise, i wouldnt have met my dearest TWIN(:, thipak and mark, the lovely girls from recruitexpress and my ex(who taught me some valuable life lessons)
i wished i had taken all the opportunities to go on overseas trip with my friends, follow my dad on business trips to see the world instead of staying cooped up in singapore
but maybe, if i did, i wouldnt have stayed at NUS for uni
a choice i dont regret

since july, everyday of my life has been fulfilling and satisfying
my life was jammed packed with activities and i chose to live by "play all you can, so you never regret" motto
i believed strongly that life's too short to be spent just studying, i study enough to do decent in school, but shopping, manicures/pedicures, dates (with sec sch clsmates/jc mates/og mates/friends/ex colleagues), going out with aloy, beach outings, iceskating, zoo trip, trampoline at hc, stunt practise with medicine ppl, dance etc became a large part of my life

life isnt always smooth sailing
but looking back,im glad of all those 'downs' cos it made me happy more easily when i learnt to appreciate all the blessings im fortunate to have
i wouldnt have made it through without aloy,whom i can always call to rant/whine/scream/cry;
the charlie angelz gang who loved me and cared for me so much i cant thank them enough;
and of cos, my twin, who was always there for me, and in some aspects where we're so different, she gave me fresh perspectives and helped me get through difficult times.

the struggles i went through earlier last year(2008) where i admittedly slipped into depression at times showed me the lowest points humans can face in their lifetime, but also proved that even the worst of situations and darkest of nights can blossom into a beautiful fairytale happy ending.

im not without troubles now, but compared to first half of 2008, these problems pale in comparison
im happy that im now a stronger person, more matured and sometimes, despite the trauma and breakdowns i went through then, im thankful it all happened and i remind myself it's a blessing in disguise

i believe in love
the most important thing in the world
that probably everyone wants
and
i feel very loved(:

im excited about 2009!
it's gonna be bigger, better filled with more love, fun and joy than before(:
remember that every single day that passes is precious
and always ask yourself, 'when i look back next time, what do i wanna say about my life'
we're only young once, let's make the best of it, make every day special, unique and worth remembering!

p.s. thanks to SABINA (medicine OG) for the lovely bear birthday present(:
i love the way its heart beats
suddenly i kinda like matthew/harvey

Y2:27 PM