Friday, December 23, 2005
i dun nd her!i can't believe it.i've always been sensitive and given in to her.so she takes advantage of me.she tries to act all matured when deep within,i know her well enough to know she's not all that.her sms and interacting w her personally are like worlds apart.she's a totally diff person.she doesnt wanna let other pple see that she's so emotional.and she cheated me.such a fake.phony.know wat?i cant b bothered w her anymore.i dun nd her n i intend 2 prove it.the poem at the bottom left side of this blog illustrates exactly how i feel now.the frenship is not true.she can b like dat.so can i.i'm so sick n tired of trying to repair this relationship.u know wat?i dun give a damn anymore.denise is right.some friends are just not worth it.no use wasting the effort.wasting emotions...
today i learnt to TRULY let go.for real.and i'm proud of myself!
i'm rather proud of myself today cos i made the best decision in my life!Today i chose not to go to KL with my cousins.I thought that i would regret.Never did i imagine that it wld turn out the way it did.
let's see.the morning was rather boring.i basically watched tv,occassionally scanning the channels for programmes.in the afternn,i went out w my cousin.she's a yr older than me!It's the 1st time we went out together.First stop:watsons.we bought facial masks,earrings and mascara.cosmetic shopping,basically.haha.then we went to apollo.haha.i know,weird name for a place which alters clothes huh.i tink so too.my cousin said since my bday was coming up she wanna buy sth for me.so sweet ya.haha.then we went to mac,cos after 1 wk + in korea wo fast food,she's starting to miss it.weird ha.then cyber cafe.tons of ah bengs.scary.i just blogged and surfed b4 making my way to Esso,cos my family owns it...somewat.i'm not too sure.know why we went there?to wait for my grandfather to leave from work so we can get a free ride.so lazy rite?
Dinner time.yi po came.then lei gave me tons of stuff.as in my cousin.the one i went out with.cosmetics and hair accessories.red earth she dun want.crazy gurl!n face mask too.neutrogena whitening.though it says 15 mins,i sat there for 45 mins.ha.ordered my cake.tiramisu mousse.heart-shaped..then i chatted with yi po.it really made me feel so light-hearted and all...i haven felt so happy since i went to Genting weeks ago.i got so many nice stuff from my cousin and then lots of love and warmth from my wai po's sis(yi po)emotionally and materialistically satisfied!
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