Saturday, April 21, 2007
im finally BACK. after. not a very long time. haha.
okay im feeling really stressed today and it was quite annoying cos it was the first feeling immediately when i woke up from my 3hr aft nap.
i feel like im wasting my days. dance totally saps my energy, even though sometimes it isnt that tiring. like yesterday, i came home at 9+ and slept at 10 -.- i should have studied maths. or something.
then this morn i was 20mins late for prac cos i overslept.
spent my whole aft sleeping.
i cant seem to find the mood to study maths.
and maths is on MON. i dont wanna flunk cos i dont wanna go for extra maths.
im just lazy. haha.
and i thought maths test was POSTPONED for dance. well it was at first. how smart of me.
the gathering on friday in the audi was really touching.
seeing us bond as a group
those tears meant a lot
thank you for those words.
now we really believe in ourselves
believe that we can do it and we will do it.
passion i cant wait for wed!!
syf day.
but im planning on getting real high on that day (: (:
j2 modern ppl ROCK. haha.
truly MADly deeply
Y11:44 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
i hate backstabbers.
as in if you wanna say sth bad about me or whatever, dont act nice in front of me.
it's revolting.
then i wonder how true a person you are to your friends.
or are you just a two-face nobody that's so low down you have to backstab?
im really sorry.
and i feel really bad cos i cant treat ppl like that properly ever again.
everytime i look at them, i just get disgusted.
im real sorry for bitching.
i got that feeling back today.
and im feeling really happy (: (:
Y8:54 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
OMG! those photos on class blog are soo unglam. i feel so disgraced. haha. courtesy of wah toon -.- but since it's all in the name of fun, i suppose it's okay. ok maybe not. i look really dumb. and im not dumb in the first place! haha. dont believe what you see in the photos. i look much prettier than that. haha. i think many people havent seen it yet so it's prob ok. i shall go publish it as draft (HAHA) then only our class ppl can laugh at me =D
anww, i was SUPER traumatised today! i boarded 170 to go chi high bus stop. then the bus was pretty crowded. as we were nearing chi high bus stop, this girl pushed past some ppl including me to get to the exit of the bus. then i accidentally bumped against this indian man's shoulder. then he got sooo pissed. he was like, "you want me to punch you?" and raised his fist. i was like, siaooo la.
then he was like get away from me. i apologised and said a girl pushed me. then he raised his middle finger and went F*** you! i was SO stunned. and he raised his fist and said he wanted to punch me. and he was like you think i dont dare is it. i was just stunned. i wasnt even scared then cos i wasnt thinking.
then this lady pulled me away from him but just nice the bus was at chi high bus stop then i ran down the bus. and guess who i saw? hoe wah toon. super unlucky la. haha. then i was so afraid the psycho would chase after me to hit me and stuff so i started running across the overhead bridge with my super heavy and thick bio file and my abnormally heavy bag. i was so scared when i called aloysius i was practically tearing.
oh well. what a suay day. but it's quite an experience. after all, sometime in life i'd meet this kinda ppl. im just lucky it's now cos it brought good things too (:
i feel so protected with you around.i was really touched by what you said it feels so good to know you wont let anything happen to your girl (:
Y9:06 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
i realise i blog like. once a month. haha.
it's so weird considering how often i blog last year and stuff.
my mum's right.
i've changed.
so anww, i've decided after that reflections thing in the audi to TRY to be consistent from now on. haha. which is very hard considering how i've slipped into those only-study-and-read-notes-if-got-tests lifestyle. im serious! im clueless till tests or exams. they should test me every week. that'll get me studying. haha. but..im still ever so proud of myself for making that resolution. it's a good first step! but today i shall slack. since tmr is good friday and a holiday.
andd..i've decided to do ALL my tutorials. i realise doing tutorials give me a sense of satisfaction. maybe cos last term i didnt do alot tuts. haha. now i actually LIKE doing them. talk about motivation.
okay this post is quite crappy cos sean says i havent been updating which i totally agree but that's cos i hardly get the time to go online and when i do, it's when my brain is dead so i've got nth to blog about. haha.
yesterday we had this nice singing session at cls bench cos we didnt have bio.
then we sat in a circle like half the class and started singing songs while simon played the guitar. and it was SUPER HOTT when we sang stacie's mom chorus together! and anastacia's at the beginning too. that one we had some singing harmony and some melody and at different pitches, which i thought was super nice. haha. then someone said it's like 75 choir or sth. i want FREE PERIODS! then we can do more cls stuff together. it's been ages since we sat in the circle to talk or sing and stuff. and im sure we were pretty loud too. haha.
and ive been through loads of ups and downs recently. i realise my mood's like super bad. permanent mood swing or sth. except when im with our class, cos there's just too many crappy people and funny stuff going on all the time that val and i agreed it's hard to remember to be angry or sad when we're with the class. i love laughing together, funny contributions by ppl esp chris during lessons, talking about anything and everything during recess-we are definitely the noisest in the canteen!! everywheree..makes the day seem so wonderful.
thank you for tolerating them (:im sorry i gave you such a tough time.i realise i can detach myself from things pretty well now.
it's not a good thing i think.
to be indifferent to something.
but i think it's my reflex to keep my focus and discipline and concentration.
past experiences really conditions the body. conditioned reflex. haha. sec 4 bio.
okayy it's 930. soo early. i feel like i should go study.
sth's wrong with me. haha.
i shall go WATCH A MOVIE. or play a game or sth.
just not do anything schwork! =D
and after so many essays and stuff, i STILL lack coherence. my thoughts are random and scattered. oh well.
byee.
Y9:04 PM
