the grey cotton wool are interwined with the baby blue ones.
they are migrating.
i close my eyes to feel the soft gentle cool breeze kissing my face
you hardly experience anything like that here in Singapore.
reminding me of how we only treasure things when they're rare and precious

the waveline of palm trees are captivating
ripple.like a wave.
the vast open field has lost its once lush green grass.
there are patches of soil and mud exposed.
a little like how beautiful things seldom stay pretty for long.

the thunder rumbles in the distance.
announcing its arrival.
the rain has come.
a few drops.
then it pelts down from the heavens above.
wash away everything please.
and let everything start anew

-admiring the weather from my corridor

finally done from doing bio.
i koped from everywhere and anywhere.

today's random day was successfully carried out.
thanks to all who participated, especially the guys who had to carry girls' bags.HAHA.

im ponning ct tmr i think..
is cramps a good idea?
ok i think it is..haha.

i let go of the rope.
only to find out im still holding on to a thin strand of it.
damn.im annoyed with myself.
it's not what i want.

val my dear sis wrote sth in my notebook for me..which i thought was damn nice as in it's so sweett la.

dream vs reality
i reached out for your hand,
but all i grabbed was air.

i leaned sideways towards you,
but all my head found was the cold hard floor.

i finally opened my eyes,
but all i saw was your silhoutte floating away.

-val*

nicceee right?told ya so.

it's nearly 5pm now n im feeling super D.E.A.D =s
cos there's like econs timed assignment that ive only read the qn and a whole lot to study for chem -.-
sat was like..an irritating useless day.lent my cousin my bag=) most prob for the wk or sth =s sigh.less choices.LOL.kidding.which was the only useful thing i DID.besides a number of pages of stoichio.anw my whole sat was wasted cos i was so tired.for goodness-knows-what-reason.after that sports pursuit,i came home n ate KFC while watching just my luck cos my parents werent in.haha.then i went to slp till dinnertime and the only reason why i woke up was cos mum was like,"michelle's gonna meet u soon,can u wake up and bathe?" so i had to DRAG myself out of bed.
that was after sleeping for nearly 3 hours.
then we went SHOPPING.HAHA.but then at night,after reading stoichio i got soooo sleepy again so i couldnt even complete the damned stoichio b4 slping.
this morn,i decided to be hardworking n wake up at 8.30am but i COULDNT get up.-.- so anw,i read alkyl halides in the morning then i realised heyy it isnt so hard act!haha.spent the morning doing piano hw.
afternn:SLEPT AGAIN.my gosh. woke up at 3+ for piano.
oh yeah i had a laughing fit during piano cos my tchr was trying to tell me sharp+flat=natural, just like how acid+ alkali = neutral..but she said alkali as AL-CAR-LY, then i started thinking abt CURRY and MANGALI.hahahaa.then i couldnt stop laughing from then on.n when i STOPPED so she could teach me,i would start like 10 sec later again.damn.
i know...signs of insanity.lol.
cos i have so freaking much to do can!yeah u'd prob go, then still got time to blog!but im only spending 10mins ranting so i can expel everything and clear my mind for CHEM!
ok im done.10mins up=)

this is random, as usual but anw..

im appreciative of all the little things.
the small class discussions.
every little thing we said made my day.
going home together.
playing bball,where the guys were nice and gave us chances.
like my shooting SUCKS LIKE HELL.

it sounds crazy that mundane things like that can brighten up ur day,isnt it?
i just happen to be the kind that likes to reflect(is that weird?o.o)
and i usually take note of these little things.
because i told myself that i never want to regret not living my JC life to the fullest.
after uve been regretting a bit,u never want that sickening feeling ever!
im proud to say that our class has shared so many wonderful memories that i will NEVER forget
so thank you 75
(see i told u i was random)
but honestly it doesnt take big events to make a day memorable.
what makes the day worth living is all those little things.
because when u add them together, u see something SPECIAL.


that's why 75 is special.

深情热烈地爱，也许你会受伤，但这是使人生完整的唯一方法

just a random quote that i found meaningful.
i always believed that everything happens for a reason.
God has his reasons for things that happen to us.

i guess the purpose of the whole incident was to help me mature.
im over it.surprisingly.
i don't know what was in that special monday this week that helped me to let go.
now im neutral.
immune.
oblivious.
thank you, Lord.

patience.

we need a few wrong turns sometimes
before we make a right one.
i just went through more wrong turns as others
but i still got here
ultimately.

haha.just a note: i koped this (below) from miao qin who koped it from friendster.HAHA. but i think some are true.the rest are just sweeeett..

when a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you.

when a guy is quiet,
he's listening to you

when a guy is not arguing,
he realizes he's wrong

when a guy says, "i'm fine" after a few minutes,
he means it

when a guy stares at you,
he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world

when you're laying your head on a guy's chest
he has the world

when a guy calls you everyday
he is in love

when a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it

when a guy says he can't live without you
he's with you till you're done

when a guy says, "i miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

when a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind

when a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply

when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around

when a girl answers, "i'm fine" after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine

when a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so wonderful

when a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever

when a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention

when a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered

when a girl says, "i'll love you forever,"
she means it

when a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future

when a girl says, "I miss you",
no one in this world can miss you more than that

i guess my cousin taught me a lot more than what can ever be said.
the power of cousins=)
mutual sentiments.
thank you for showing me.
wanted to study right?!
then we spent our hours yakking.
and going like OMG when we do the same things
i swear it's like we share telepathy or sth.
honestly.
and all along,we thought we stood alone..

just when i was bathing like 10 mins ago
i was filled w this feeling of resolution, determination and bursting spurt of energy
why the hell am i wasting my time?
im stupid.
dumb.
retarded.
i know, right?
so anw then while bathing i decided:
w/o reciprocation,
im being an idiot.
so now i officially declare my not being an idiot.
why continue wasting my time, right?
yeaahhh...i thought so too..
ok SETTLED.

im done for the day.=)


so i guess REALLY NOW, right here right now
this is where it all ends.

you showed me im wasting my time.


a closure finally.
and the curtains open.
the stage is bare.
it has always been.
somehow i used to imagine the props..
that DONT exist,
right from the start.

p.s. im not self deluding nor lying nor trying to convince myself.honestly
somehow everything sorted itself out
in the mere space of hours.
how did that happen?!
a miracle
i was always supposed to reach here.
i GUESS.
but i DETOURED.

HA.i feel so good after knowing this:

hope is one of the strongest forces ever known to mankind.
it can keep a dying man alive, but it can kill him too.

koped it from chris seah's blog.that has some anti-koping 'charm'. -_-
NOW i know why hope is so impt to me.
why it's strong enough to make u smile.
when it's shattered, u feel broken n lost too.
so let me keep that hope.
moving forward is good.
but pls dont regress.

im half wishing i went to yong's hse to swim after school today -.-
HEYY GO AGAIN NEXT WEEk!=)
then i'll go..haha.
i must get the experience of swimming there and watching simon tan.LOL
must be really hilarious.
i love my class.
and maths test was pretty..
well my ENTIRE P N C is WRONGG.
lol.i cant even get part 1 right.
n it's easy.after u hear the steps that is...
ahh welll,cant be helped.
despite knowing i lost a hell lot of marks(i mean relative to 20 marks),i was damn happy after maths.
dun ask me why.
it's like somehow ive been dreading this the entire week.
then the whole weight is off my shoulders is 45 mins.
feels sooo good.=)

n my parents are not home tonight.
haha.can have fun.=)
like go dance arnd or sth.
ok that sounds spastic =.=

there's this list of confessions i saw on mq's blog.
basically u're supposed to check against a list of stuff that u have done,thought,etc..
THENN there was this..
-Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have -- YES.how sickening.-_-
-Thought of someone a lot lately.(in relative comparison..i would have to say YES. tsk. im ashamed of my lack of self control)
-love someone who doesnt/didnt realise it (uh.YES again.but maybe love's a strong word.like's more appropriate..ok maybe not.more like 'like quite a lot' kinda thing)
-had feelings for someone who didnt have them back -- yes.i suck?yes i know.=.=
see how i lack self control?
yeah. oh oh then rem this email abt how u cant control who u like?
cos ur heart chooses.
not you.
i like to believe in that.

i was just thinking...
if it's bad,please don't tell me
i'd rather stay in this self-spun web of lies(ok mayb not lieS,but LIE.)

right now,im trying to reason w myself.
boy is it HARD.
i want to believe in the positive one.
haha.EVEN IF it's so make-believe.
self-delusional?
nah..
im just toooo hopeful.


that it hurts to believe in anything else.

you make me happy.
when skies are grey...

/let'skeepstaring/

re-enacting those scenes
seeing it like a video in my mind
a happy thought.
a warm feeling.
.i smiled.

"don't be afraid to tell someone you love.
if you do,they might break your heart.
if you dont,you might break theirs."
if it's ur siblings,family,friends,this is prob true.
but to that special person..
HA.AS IF IT'S SO EASY!

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.It does it on its own...(precisely!and this is annoying)
when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
-most of us have,havent we?
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
-i'd probably would.but i'd rather feel regret than hurt,i suppose.

/DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you/

//The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. //

actually.im content this way.
and that's all that matters i guess.

all along,He may have been telling me to wait patiently.
like this whole dilemma thing..
it took me so long to stop pacing at the crossroads and step onto a path.
but in the end,He still helped me to come to a decision.
by sending an angel into my life.
my sister.

funny how she's been there the whole time.
yet it was only yesterday that the magical words came from her.
the one that solved my problems.
for now.
this goes to show that He will give me.
in time.
i just need to wait patiently.
and in the end,
everything will turn out right.
just like sophia said it would.

both my sisters are angels.
sent by God.

you know what?

im at peace.
honestly.
seriously.
im done with hurting myself.
if i know i can never let go,then so be it.
today i asked Him to show me.
he did.subtly.
and talking with dear val sis helped!

i can wait.
patiently.
because that day will come.
i hope.

i can wait.
and i will wait.

now everyday a little something,
it's enough.
i just wished u'd give me a sign that it's not all in vain.

finally i can settle down.
finally i can get some work done.

i made a choice.
my first step on the path.
i hope it was right.
now i wish you were beside me.

2 sets of 2 numbers.
substitutues.
the only thing that differs.
each is one of us.
may the rainbow form
to be the connection.

i can wait.

all i want to do is:
sleep
and never wake up.

so that i can

dream
of the reality that can never exist.

a fork: left or right?
deadline=tomorrow

i want my concentration.
i want my focus.
i want my discipline
i want all of these back.

it's what i desperately need now...

no clean start.
is a clean break possible?

and this is where it all ends.

ive changed my perspective over quite a lot of stuff.

if i had let myself sunk deeper,i would get what i envy.
but the thing is,when it happens to me
i get freaked.
sometimes i dunno how i feel..

oh yes!im getting a tummy i think!
what the..
thanks to late night snacking
partly dad's fault since he bought back those chips
so much for it's-mine-don't-steal-ah
it's in a steal-able place please.
haha
then last night i couldnt slp
so i had to chomp on some crackers spread w cream cheese w onion n chives
so heavenly
it's all that cream cheese's fault
who ask it to b so tempting la!
n i was reading this medicinal plant tiny booklet thing
then i started laughing cos it's so random n weird to read this kind of books
which scared me.
as in i laughed n scared myself -_-
cos like some mad person like that.
it was 11.35pm!

n that was so totally random

i have to go learn this year's apollo fac dance
it's so pretty!
yeah i just realised.
jie's teaching luckily
i cant rem ANYTHING.
ok maybe a little.
motivated.

just when i thought today was going to be another of those boring wednesdays,
dull and routine,
i was wrong.

eunice is right.
let nature take its course.

unexpected.

i cant believe im happy over such a small thing.
this sounds pathetic.
do i suck or what?

modern's not performing for teacher's day.
we're rejecting it cos some ppl cant make it.
n it's alr like pathetic w 5 girls n 4 guys.
plus if we do,we need a new choreo.
n it's in like a few weeks..
so little time=/

dance was great today!
we jumped n leaped n jumped n leaped.
i was so exhausted la.
what w grand jetes,attitudes(is this right?),seconde position jump,double attitude.
n we stretched.releve,split,plies..
n i CANT DO ANYTHING W MY LEFT LEG.
NOTHING.no splits no jetes.NTH.
n all the girls can
yeah sure they trained last time..
but still.
which means i gotta go practise.
sigh..
n there's a million n 1 tutorials.
bio chem maths econs!!!
ok i think i better go..

through the trees
i will find you
i will heal the ruins left inside you;



samantha.nus med class of 2013!hwachong apollo.shopaholic.danceaddicted.
currently having horrible hair.loves you.


my straight hair back!
money!a job!





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