it seems like a week has passed since sch ended.
sun n mon were slacky blurs - tv(now i got cable =),online,piano,slping, talking, stretching
i did sth productive today though (:
i packed the toilet=D.. and all my sch work - gotta file them tmr.

going out w my cousin on wed =) yay yay. then at night sis got drama production which is FREE. so im gonna watch XD
friday got cca.
ohh man, what to do on thurs?! sigh.
pls dun ask me to start doing hw or study..i mean sch let out a mere 4 days ago.
i'll scare myself..n i'll scare my mum. haha. later she think i siao or sth =)

confused;
(nice phrases:
世界若是 那麼大 為何我要忘記你 無處逃
世界若是 那麼小 為何我的真心 你聽不到

today ms pig woke up at 11 -.- thinking it was still early and we cld swim b4 lunch.haha.

saw simon when i accompanied my sis to her piano exam rm.
then dad n i went shopping.
my dad rocks! haha.
he's super niccee; like if u want sth, normally he just lets u have it.
seriously.anw yesterday, when i told him we can spend the 3 hrs shopping,while my sis was at piano exam, his reply was: got sth to buy is it. then he smiled and went, "bonding =D" lol.
so we walked and shopped frm centrepoint to ps.
and i regret wearing heels today.=/ walk so much la!

i was thinking i shld learn yanyin: get ~6cm heels . lol. she was towering over miaoqin and me yesterday -.-
then in the car on the way home, sis said we shld have watched a movie. then dad was like OH YEAH why didnt we. haha so i said nxt time we can have dad-daughter bonding session n go watch (: which he agreed.

sigh.i must drag dad to charles n keith one day. i need heels!lol.

-im tired.
what do you want?

today was a long day.
im too lazy to blog cos im pretty beat.
maybe some other day.
n i packed my clothes cupboard.HAHA.

cant believe it's the holidays.
i keep thinking we still have sch.

-gabrielle's out of reach-i wont say more.

i don't quite know;
how to say;
how i feel

if i lay here;
if i just lay here;
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

random but someone was asking me the other day my definition of hope.
hope; the sudden burst of feeling and bliss that can kill all pessimism(on the issue) in me

will it all end now?

had to leave early cos of piano.
piano sucks -.-
got quite a bit of hw =/ that has to be done by TMR early morning =.=

went j8 today!=)
cos our class was gonna eat in sch. and i like just had a duck rice w beancurd a few hrs before/
so sch food twice a day? spare me.
so it was out of sch w kityeng and ivan.
then later toon joined us and we cabbed to j8.
im too lazy to narrate here what happened cos i got piano hw n the only reason im typing is cos my sis is bathing n i cant do piano when im dirty.
BUT it was fun n crappy!!lol. love today (:
ivan,fatimah n i then went to orchard.
i bought my blizzard. and ivan got this sth chip thing from starbucks, which is damn nice if u like coffee.
then fatimah had to go..so left two of us, n we went back to sch..
apollo fac outing is like..sevenfive ownage or sth..
we got MOST ENTHU CLASS.
THE hippiest girl n guy too..(more like who can shake hoola -.-) haha
then the slide show was like..A LOT OF SEVENFIVE PICS!
majority of the class photos were our class heh.
then YONG won the eat-bananas thing..LOL.
haha he rocks la!!
so basicallllyyy, 75 is super well known -big smile-
(wth when is my sister coming out=.=)
i love j1.
i love sevenfive.

sadly, all good things come to an end

have you ever had the feeling that:
- what you're feeling now contradicts how you've been feeling all this time?
-whatever you want is so ridiculous you wonder why the heck did you even let yourself think abt it in the first place
- suddenly you realise what you want is not gonna come true and you feel stupid thinking that it would before
- all that has happened may not have meant anything at all; and it was because you were thinking too much
- you are really dumb thinking that sth is reachable when it is so blindingly impossible?
- finally you are calm and at peace because you've stopped fighting against the truth
- when you try to suppress your feelings and restrict your thoughts, they seem to burst out stronger than ever, like a raging storm
- when you finally allow your thoughts to roam free, the sea calms and the waves are gentle
-you're lost because you're unsure of your next step: to progress or to take a step backwards; because you're afraid of making the wrong choice
- you're stressed because something means enough to you that you wanna do the right thing
- you're confused because of what has happened

well,im feeling all that now..

it's not up to me anymore.

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shopping spree at body shop's sale at suntec convention hall w ivy, yao and later, my aunt
feelss so GOOD la.
the price was like o.O omg.
come on, since when are mascaras 3 for 9.90!
and lip gloss dots 3 for 9.90?
and LOADS of other stuff- makeup, facial washes, body butters, shower gels, gift sets etc.
you can mix and match.coool rite?
and still got free gift with every purchase. - body mask(i have no idea what are they) haha.
yeah then walk walk see see. nth much.
and i didnt eat dinner. cos i was so full frm lunch at cafe cartel and my auntie anne's pretzel later on. oh and ivy's pepsi. heh.
ok gtg do piano hw.
SIAN.

tags:
eunice: in relative proportion to size, i'd say we're equal pigs. =D lol
soph: OH GOSH. -sam : looks beneath foot- -soph: turns arnd 'frantically'- haha
ck: robert got a new surname - rock! lol.

guess what?
i think today is bully-samantha day =(
i mean im honoured and all BUT (as x seah says, this is a KEYWORD) AHEM..
during the video of scream 06 thing, stupid simon and wahtoon scared me to DEATH la..-.-
simon started it -_- or was it wah toon.
make me JUMP like an idiot and scream.
super embarrassing..it's in the AUDI .argh.
chris seah had like 28342o3 failed attempts. LOL..lousy.heh.

and i have this thing abt ghost movies..
i used to like them when i was p4.
then i had quite a lot of them also but there was this super duper scary one i NVR got arnd to watching cos when i first saw the cover(someone lent me),i screamed and THREW it on the floor.
then i started stashing all those cds in boxes cos i never ever want to see them again.
the last ghost movie i watched- i dunno the title.cos i watched backwards.as in SAT backfacing.haha.

during break..chris seah took my phone cos i was drinking his coke.
THEN i stupidly chased after him in the CANTEEN.
the CANTEEN..wahlao. major humiliation.
n the WORST thing is, he passed my phone to wahtoon.
thank gdness i didnt go up the canteen steps and arnd the back or i can just be the world's dumbest person.. lol.
THEN i saw wahtoon n robert invading my privacy- as in reading my msgs.-.-
but they're DAMN DUMB. haha.
oh OH THEY can be world's DUMBEST people..lalala.
cos i managed to get my phone back. HA.

econs review..sigh.i lent them my phone n privacy protection.
and i didnt bother to change the pw.
forgot that ivan using the same phone la!
damn! then he told chris seah..then when chris seah 'cracked' it,
it was a mad chase again..down the steps and along the corridors.
goodness..BUT im super fit now =D
then i changed my pw..n chris seah tried to guess..
but haha.im gonna remove it anw..
but damn fun to make them try and try XD. desperate . lol.
i just dun get why they wanna see my msgs.
there's nth la.seriously. but haha.

then i went for dental..a little late.
then home,then sleep till 8.
eat dinner and watched charmed at 8.30-9.30
soo now im pretty slacky..
maybe i shld go slp soon. LOL. then see what time i wake up =)

reply to tags:
robert: uh.u mean x seah SUCKS. lol
chris: DUH im sure. with ur lameness -.-
yong: you come near us we'll TKD you..haha. and you must admit, ponytails are NICE. lol.

had cca today. nicholas(as in 73) and i are noobers. haha.
we like stoned there during improvisation cos we thought dan was demonstrating -.-....
when he's not. erps.
then we were wondering how come the rest doing -_- haha.
yes i know we're smart XD

i think today is niao-samantha day or sth. lol.
ok maybe everyday is =.=
but that's NOT THE POINT. heh

anw today we had a "girls' day" at taka.
we just pigged out. =D
hmm..val n i shared a fudgy gooey brownie which was not exactly chewy as promised.
then we had tako pachi. and the cheese omelette thing- NICE LA CAN!
soph let us try this durian puff thing which ROCKS.
durian-lovers, you've gotta eat this one !!
n yueqi intro-ed soph and i to giant fishcake w chilli. it's shiok too.
and the cream puff at beard papa's niicceee..the cream esp!
thanks yueqi! (more affectionately known as chi chi darling.-goosebumps-) for letting us kope (:
and then yiwei, val n eunice drank the milkshake frm mos, which we koped too.
soph and i bought drinks from cold storage, in an attempt to save money XD

OH AND DID I TELL U how soph and i are both quite noob?
we dun know how to take bus back to sch.. LOL
so we took the train route.
and despite the rest leaving first and us getting interrupted by a stupid person who talked crap and tried to get us to donate money, we got back earlier than the rest!=D AMAZED?! haha

(a lot of random statements i realise..)
so ANYWAYthe guys shld have gone laa..so hum chi one..tsk tsk.haha.
oh OH then we boo-ed the guys at fishtank!(somewhat.haha)
uh and bio was mostly copying n getting niaoed. -.-
today's a FUN DAY.
another day closer to the end of j1 sadly =(

and b4 i forget, thanks eunice and sean for intro-ing me to "how to save a life"!! and eunice too for sending me songs!yay..more songs to song collection.=) LALALA

"would you lie with me and just forget the world"
-chasing cars, snow patrol

THANKS to chris seah, i had an obscene green patch on my collar =.=
haha.
n MATHS IS WAY BORINNGG.
esp if you're notesless like yong, me, eunice and chris(is it?!)lol.

and all the girls in the middle row today during maths has LONG HAIR.WOW. in a ponytail!
it was yong who noticed by the way..and who wanted to cut them off -.- ERPS.
oh yeah did i mention that our class is like wonderful.=D
look at how we eat blatantly during lectures.
pass food arnd like nobody's business.XD

honestly, i want time to freeze here forever.
i realise im perfectly content now.
well somewhat anw.
thinking of J2 is enough to make me feel like throwing up.
the work, the stress, the lack of slackiness....

how come when i wanted to be disciplined and focused i couldnt be?
and now when im so free i dun restrict my thoughts, they seem to be suppressed on their own?
just WHAT is wrong?
is this a sign?

so what now?

i fell asleep twice during piano today. -.-
n i didnt get home on time, so my sister started first.
which meant that i started at 5.
after lesson ended at 6, i went to sleep.
till 8, then my mum woke me up to eat dinner..
right after dinner, i helped my mum w the banana muffins.=)

anw, love me by collin raye is niiccee.
go listen.

"If you get there before I do,
don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me."

so anw, i tink i shall watch a movie tonight =)
hmm inside man?
im dying for action these days =/
it's thrillers or nth. sth's wrong. haha.

and i dun know what to say, think or feel.
maybe i shld try laying the bricks.
before i regret.

i forgot abt i n r till chris seah msged me at abt 5+?
n im a little lazy to do =D
BUT I SHALL DO IT. -.-

there's sth wrong n i dun know what is it. =/
it's like there's this impending feeling of doom in me.
i dun get it..
im not having the euphoria or ecstasy of post-promos in me.
i remember telling myself how i must enjoy myself for the rest of this year and maximise time cos im gonna miss J1 like hell next yr.
but the thing is,
i cant enjoy it.
every moment im awake i feel like something is wrong.
sure there are those few happy moments i bask in..
but only for a very short time, then im back to being..well..sad.i think.
what's affecting me? =(

(i know this is on my nick)
so you tell me;

but it's time to face the truth.i can never be with you.-james blunt
is this how you want it?
n is this what it's supposed to be?
can i protest?

HAPPY THINGS OF TODAY:
1. the new plasma 42" tv is arriving on mon at 3pm.HAHA.1024 x 1080
2. new humidifier! (stupid haze)
3. walked a lot with val n eunice. we covered shaw hse, taka, wisma, n walked to borders there too.then val had to leave for church, so eunice and i went to OG then to PS. woots. loads of walking.i feel so FIT! =)
4. went to sasa and val and i tried quite a bit of eyeshadows. then i saw this nice sparkly one so i decided to apply it. at first, i put on one eyelid only, then val say a bit funny on one only, so i applied for both.. right in front of the cashier.haha. eunice was looking at me in a amused manner. lol.

pissing things:
i didnt know my family went to Ritz Carlton for a free buffet w NICE SASHIMI etc courtesy of my dad's fren's son's birthday. HE'S LIKE SEVEN YEARS OLD and his bday party is at a five star hotel. how fair is that! hmph.

anw, art friend is such a nice place to shop. haha.. oh yeah, i went out w ZERO dollars and ZERO cents..lol.which meant i had to go draw. like how SMART la. haha.
mainly we walked arnd A LOT. and window shop.haha.cos it's not like i had a lot to spend.-.- after spending about 10 bucks on food here and there.and my go-out-w-no-money didnt exactly help. haha.

okkk im off to do theory hw for tmr. siannn

i got loads of blueblacks! =(
like 4 on my left knee n a GIANT one on my right leg.
how absolutely wonderful -.-
i think most of us went home today w at least one bruise.haha.
the stupid open hse rehearsal took damn long.
start at TWO my ass.
we're the 9th item and we were on at 5.45pm or sth.
imagine the rest at the back.
it's like less than halfway through only or sth -.-

Gabriel rocks.
and yes i know modern is slow.
but it's pretty what.XD
n chris seah told me he now appreciates modern a bit more -.-
how encouraging =.= lol.
wait a min's nice..haha.but ive watched them prac a few times alr=)
n the new apollo fac dance is niicccee..
but it's FOUR mins or sth.according to serene.heh.
and it LOOKS HARD!haha.

cca ended at 3 today=)
then claire said some 75ers are at yong's hse, watching korean drama or sth..
then i didnt wanna go.haha.
i dun have anything against it;
i just dun like it as much as some ppl do.
no idea why.
watched full hse last yr dec..uh well.some parts of it.
cos when it got boring at parts, i wld go get some food, cycle arnd, then come back again.lol.
then i missed the whole front part cos...i dunno why either..haha.
i started watching from the they-go-movie together part or sth =/
some parts are funny though.
and the ending's pretty sweet albeit expected..yeah.
val says this other show is nice n i shld go watch.
i think i wld, when im more free and stuff like next week?
but the mere thought of so many episodes puts me off =(
im gonna pw later..and watch more of "inside man"

DERAILED is such a nice show!!
zhuting agrees!haha.
good plot.
i particularly liked the gradual influence and change of character of clive owen.
from someone so naive and innocent and pitiful to cunning, smart and the "winner" in the end.
GO WATCH IF U CAN!
thriller all the way!=)

i think i have anger management issues.
only with my sister.
she's like the only person in the world who can piss me off enough i curse and cry and break pencils.
her exam is in 2 days and she doesnt know square root.

then my mum scolds me for not being patient w her.when i didnt even DO ANYTHING.
that's like my pet peeve.i hate being accused.
especially when my sister was next to me n she refused to say i was being patient until my mum is out of the room.
n what my mum says makes me real pissed.
u wont wanna know what it is.
like SHE curses at me. like wth.
it's so PISSING to the extent i'll start cursing.
then i need to vent my energy somewhere
breaking pencils is a good way i realise.
throwing things isnt good cos after i throw,i'll get really angry that i threw my things cos of some idiot.
not worth it you know.
then after i break pencils into 3s or 4s,my hands get so red i start to cry.
seriously.

try getting EXTREMELY pissed and see what u'll do.
im surprised the first time it happened.
i mean i didnt know how pissed i could get.
i told my sister that i was going to kill her -.-
and it's only with her.
it's weird cos normally i dun flare up.
except at extreme: cheaters,unfairness,backstabbers n accusations.
cos usually after bitching abt it for a while( as most ppl wld) im fine.

sigh.
now my hands hurt.
but im fine.

i was just rereading all my blog entries from july till now.

seeing my struggles and dilemma, how i kept moving forward then backward with no progress, i was so pissed the tears welled.
lots of "i should haves"

then i realised every single moment, we're maturing.
seeing how far ive come since july16, it hasnt even been 3months and it felt like a lifetime.

reassurance is crucial;
i feel like im taking insulin jabs;

yesterday, the first thing my mum said to me was, "why are you so black o.0?" in chinese.

then i looked down at myself and went, "OH Ya!"

then my mum started saying how i should go use her nivea whitening and her whitening shower cream for the next few days at least.=.= lol.

so i went to my dad's room a little while later and started rubbing the nivea.then my mum came out of the toilet, saw me and went back in to take a BIG bottle of her shower cream and told me to go use.-.-.

then at 11pm, i decided to go sleep
i was thinking i should settle for an early night so that i could wake up at 8+ to cook pancakes for breakfast! =)
but...my wonderful plan failed cos...

i woke up at 11.30am this morning =.=
thinking it was 9..cos my dad came in, like he always does at 9, and said, "sam..i think we're going to eat lunch soon.." and i was like thinking boy my dad must be mad, i wanna eat my pancakes for breakfast. and when i looked at the clock, i nearly KILLED myself.

anw, friday was one of the most adventurous days of my life.
6.20am - got up and took dad's car to grandma's hse
6.50am- reached grandma's hse and went to sleep
7.51am - val called and was like, samantha WHERE ARE U! they're doing a spot check! hurry come now..
7.53-8.10am changed and ran out of the hse.got to sch
i came so early for nth anyway cos siva wasnt even there to take attendance!-.- HMPH.and when i told dad at night, he said why u so goondoo one? dont go lah! you think i stupid meh? if the tchr call, i will tell him my daughter is sick and sleeping at home!
boy do i love my dad. he says or else he can tell them how retarded(ok my words,he said 'stupid') they are to make us come to sch so early and waste our time =)
then we ordered macs and slacked arnd a lot! played frisbee a little, went to bball court to watch the guys etc.
ate macs at the bball court.then we went for the pw session which was SOO crappy.
then after that, when i got up, i realised MY SKIRT HAD A VERY BIG *****. wth. of all days.
thank goodness i had the help of my dear classmates- claire,eunice,siyun,yingchern,yiwei.
ohh then the most nerve wrecking incident of the day:
escaping from sch pretending to be a j2.
val n i were walking across the central plaza when ppc shouted right behind us to ppl playing frisbee to stop and go to the audi.val n i made a mad dash for the photocopying shop toilet.
then we hid there for a bit. i couldnt go out cos i was in APOLLO tee and it's YELLOW.how striking.so i called auyong to bring my uni to the toilet.then i washed my skirt and blew dry it a little and walked out.then val n i took our bags and held some pieces of paper, pretending to be studying and took a bus to venezia.HAHA.then at venezia i changed back to apollo tee and we hung arnd in gourmet then 7-11.
then eunice called to give the all-clear sign.
this is SO FUN! lol.

today was a pretty depressing day for us.
ups and downs.
but im so proud we fought all the way.

one thing im PISSED at and im sure everyone wld agree:
winning fair and square is acceptable and i'll admire and praise your professionalism in the sport.
but stooping to lowly cunning jian manner is utterly ridiculous and disgusting.
if you're going to win in the end, why do this?
if u're truly good at the sport, play fair because you know no one is as good as you guys and you dont have to jeopardise anyone's chances.
like we lost to other classes,but we're fine cos they're better than us.

ahh no point saying now. we've all vent enough =)
but congrats to everyone who made it to the top 4 in every game!

APOLLO ROCKS!! we're united!=)
realised 77 cheers for us quite a bit..yesterday's volleyball today's soccer...
so we cheered their bball!haha.they're pretty zai

there's still one more day.
apollo still owns.i hope. at least overall of overall. haha.

sevenfive rocks. all the way.
it's a fact through and through.

SEVENFIVE IS LIKE THE BESTEST BESTEST ROCKIEST CLASS EVERRR!!
haha.like seriously..
we lost one hoola grp (but this was a mix-classes thing..so..not counted) lost girls' bb and table tennis.
BUT..(this is the keyword..haha.as chris seah would say)
we won:
frisbee TWICE, floorball, volleyball, hoola and soccerrr!!
are we zai or what?!
compare the amt we lose and win..
then you'll seeee...
we ROCK LIKE HEELLL..

now that was a littlleee high but it's true! =D
lady luck was smiling down upon us i suppose.
the pro people of the day: chris seah, sean, yong and rei
andddd.... all sevenfivers OF COURSE =)

my legs are really sore and i think i burned A LOT of fats today..
haha.i feel less flabby! XD
i think i shall sleep soon or something..
another longg day tmr.

sevenfive all the way!

PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER!! MUAHAHAHA.
but i am soo dead.
shall not think abt it =D
im dreading the days we take back our papers though.=/
anw val n i borrowed the hoola for like 10 mins after bio to get the feel again.
i seriously hope NOTHING GOES WRONG TMR!
or i'll KILL myself..haha

so anw val n i chionged to newton, changed in the mrt toilet, then chionged to ritz carlton.
we had a HARD TIME finding it and by the time we did, we were sweating like PIGS.lol
cos my dad brought his clients there and he got vouchers for spending quite a bit then he gave it to ME..it's 75 bucks total..haha.
and the buffet is 44 a person w GST therefore if 2 ppl dined,it'd be 6.80 a person or sth after the vouchers..
COOOL RITE?
haha.so here i wanna say I LOVE MY MUMMY AND MY DADDY for letting me go w val =D
lol..anw the whole buffet was like shiok cos there was so much to eat like sashimi and local and desserts etc.
why dont u let the pictures show you everything? here it is:
http://s103.photobucket.com/albums/m149/sam-and-val/ritz%20carlton%20buffet%20031006/s/m149/sam-and-val/ritz%20carlton%20buffet%20031006/
login password: our pw for class blog 06s75 -winks- =D
the whole experience was COOOL and the ambience is good.
mostly it's the working class and some tourists..yeah.
their service is GOOD though.
and i didnt eat dinner..val too.cos we were so FULL after stuffing ourselves.
mum say must eat like siao..heh.
but i tell you, my phone ROCKS..
cos it can take mosaic shots..cool yeah? look at the few below: damn niceee

through the trees
i will find you
i will heal the ruins left inside you;



samantha.nus med class of 2013!hwachong apollo.shopaholic.danceaddicted.
currently having horrible hair.loves you.


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