Friday, May 30, 2008
(im not gonna post for awhile cos i wanna remind myself of this post)
i hate a guy who can curse at a girl with all sorts of vulgarities as if she didnt matter to him
i hate a guy who gets exasperated and pissed off instead of finding a peaceful solution
i hate a guy whose heart feels one thing but his actions contradict his feelings.
i hate the guy, who accuses me of not thinking of his feelings, because in the first place, he doesnt think of mine-all he does is stomp on my poor heart.
i wanna forget the guy who has broken my heart again and again,no matter how many chances i give him.
i wanna give up on a guy,who used to be my whole world, because i am no longer his world to him.
i want a guy who can appreciate all that im doing for him,just like how i'll appreciate him as best as i can.
i want a guy who loves me for being able to give up everything in this world for him.
可惜那个人不是你
because of you
i hurt someone else really badly.
but that hurt will stop right now.
for six months, i truly believed, and HOPED with all my heart, that one morning, i would wake up to find that things have made a 180degree turn.
i am where i am exactly ONE YEAR AGO.
sitting in the same hotel apartment and making the same late night overseas call using my dad's same blackberry to the same person
but the attitude, the tone, the feelings are no longer the same.
and can never be the same.
it seems that all that i've done for you these 6months is in vain
no matter how i try to make you touched, it isnt working
all the letters,emails,gifts i make for you,smses,calls..
im gonna stop.
the guessing game is too tiring.
i quit.
so now i will still make the same late night overseas call using my dad's same blackberry
it's just that it's not
you im calling this time.
it's
him.
aloysius ho =DELETE
Y10:56 AM
