Thursday, July 20, 2006
i have loads of things to say actually.
well,first,i would like to thank my dearest classmates,who sms-ed me to wish me luck and giving me the moral support for my piano exam
somehow the room didnt seem so cold today(as compared to tuesday)=)
i dunno if i screwed up.
but when i came out of the room,i was rather high.
maybe it's just the fact that i dun have to play the piano anymore!
(or at least for the nxt month till results are out =/)
I WANNA PASS!!!
anw,i was feeling rather happy and all.
but when i came home, slept and woke up, i had this foreboding feeling that im SO DEAD.
dont ask me why i felt this way.
i wanna know that too..
this freaked me out BADLY.
ask val.i was spilling my panic on her.haha.
those little gestures when isolated dont mean a thing.
it's accumulative.piece them together and i see something.
maybe all these dont mean anything.
but i want it to work out.
if you like a person,shouldnt you just spit it all out?
in case u regret..which u'd probably will.
but it's so hard..and i have always held the belief guys shld do it.
i wont ever tell a person that i like him.
i'll just keep it to myself (or tell a close friend)
maybe i'll drop subtle hints - that's the furthest
if the feeling is mutual,i'll die of elation (i think.)
self-delusion may seem stupid.
it isnt.
everyone needs a little fantasy in their lives.
it gives that false but warm sensation of hope that can bring a smile on a rainy day.
-impossible reality.dreamlike fantasy.-
coincidence.
i wish u'd feel the same way.
i wish...
what are the odds?
Y5:05 PM
