Saturday, July 22, 2006
you know at first i was like,i dun like him.i DUN.but gosh,it's delusion and lying to myself.it's just a reallyy good thing no one teases me abt it such that i feel threatened or sth.ok threatened is not right,it's more like awkward.it feels good that they are leaving me alone to wander in the realms of fantasy by myself,not having to worry abt what they'll say or sth..now ive told like 4 ppl.3 of them are my last yr classmates whom im really close to and it feels really good to share this kinda thing..then they can tell me their perspectives.which helps.
i dun want to find out the truth.
it's like i dread the day.
i think i'd rather it remain this way that there's always this hope.tiny it may be.
i dun want the hope shattered.
i know im denying myself a chance that the response may be positive.
but COME ON,what are the odds?
why him.
there are one million n one others.
n it has to be that one.
i wish i had psychic powers.
Y11:11 PM
