Friday, June 20, 2008
sometimes i think im stupid.
for people i love, i wld dumbly forgive them again and again no matter how they hurt me.
to the extent that they start taking advantage of me-but i guess it's my fault.
and they don't know how much i suffer inside.
they don't know that i wake up every morning haunted by thoughts of them
thoughts i cannot control cos it's my subconscious.
but to be human is to suffer.
and i believe God doesnt make you suffer more than you can take.
it's painful,but it's good because tt's when you learn and grow stronger as a person.
everyone suffers at some point in their life
but people who know me know im the emotional sort
my feelings control me more than my mind
which totally sucks now if you think about it.
but i will move on.
and it's a good lesson
cos i finally accept that my dad is right-never trust people too much.
i think i cant ever get a bf anymore
i'd prob be too scared to trust again
because i cant go through this a second time
once is enough;
Y10:46 PM
