♥ i close my eyes and the flashback starts;

Friday, January 02, 2009

too many things happening.
my mind's spinning.
for once in my life,i wish i could have time to myself to slack,pack and just not rush for dates/appointments/events/gatherings.
it's really too tiring.
sacrificing one for another isnt my style either
my calendar's been disgusting
i dont even have time to date my dear sister val :(
and sch's starting in a few days=s

on a happier note,
HAPPY 2009 everyone!
2008 wouldnt have been what it is without you guys
im proud of the new friendships ive made-my yp colleagues, my recruitexpress colleagues, my medicine OG mates, medicine classmates, medicine M2s and random friends everywhere, anytime!

the first half of 2008 wasnt well spent.
if given a chance, i wanna relive it all over again and do things differently.
there are too many things i regret doing, regret not doing, yet somehow im glad it turned out to be what it is because otherwise, i wouldnt have met my dearest TWIN(:, thipak and mark, the lovely girls from recruitexpress and my ex(who taught me some valuable life lessons)
i wished i had taken all the opportunities to go on overseas trip with my friends, follow my dad on business trips to see the world instead of staying cooped up in singapore
but maybe, if i did, i wouldnt have stayed at NUS for uni
a choice i dont regret

since july, everyday of my life has been fulfilling and satisfying
my life was jammed packed with activities and i chose to live by "play all you can, so you never regret" motto
i believed strongly that life's too short to be spent just studying, i study enough to do decent in school, but shopping, manicures/pedicures, dates (with sec sch clsmates/jc mates/og mates/friends/ex colleagues), going out with aloy, beach outings, iceskating, zoo trip, trampoline at hc, stunt practise with medicine ppl, dance etc became a large part of my life

life isnt always smooth sailing
but looking back,im glad of all those 'downs' cos it made me happy more easily when i learnt to appreciate all the blessings im fortunate to have
i wouldnt have made it through without aloy,whom i can always call to rant/whine/scream/cry;
the charlie angelz gang who loved me and cared for me so much i cant thank them enough;
and of cos, my twin, who was always there for me, and in some aspects where we're so different, she gave me fresh perspectives and helped me get through difficult times.

the struggles i went through earlier last year(2008) where i admittedly slipped into depression at times showed me the lowest points humans can face in their lifetime, but also proved that even the worst of situations and darkest of nights can blossom into a beautiful fairytale happy ending.

im not without troubles now, but compared to first half of 2008, these problems pale in comparison
im happy that im now a stronger person, more matured and sometimes, despite the trauma and breakdowns i went through then, im thankful it all happened and i remind myself it's a blessing in disguise

i believe in love
the most important thing in the world
that probably everyone wants
and
i feel very loved(:

im excited about 2009!
it's gonna be bigger, better filled with more love, fun and joy than before(:
remember that every single day that passes is precious
and always ask yourself, 'when i look back next time, what do i wanna say about my life'
we're only young once, let's make the best of it, make every day special, unique and worth remembering!

p.s. thanks to SABINA (medicine OG) for the lovely bear birthday present(:
i love the way its heart beats
suddenly i kinda like matthew/harvey

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